Arguing with CARBONITE

Ugh!!

Guy REALLY knows how to get on my nerves!!

So I was reading through some comments from my YouTube channel earlier today, and I noticed a few comments in particular that really caught my eye….some in a really amazing sort of way, and some others in a BAAAD way…

I ALWAYS do my best to reply to comments, and yes, EVEN THE TERRIBLE ONES! To be honest, I feel pretty proud of that.  :)

But apparently, Guy doesn’t seem to think it’s anything to write home about! Earlier today, Guy and I are chatting over some brews, and I mention some of the nasty comments I replied to today…

“What? You mean you ACTUALLY reply to that dumb shit?!”

I should have known Guy was one of those guys!! Grrr…

Anyways, this whole whether or not to feed the trolls thing has turned into a SERIOUS debate between Guy and me. There is seriously NOTHING worse than arguing with Guy when he has his mind made up.

…might as well be presenting arguments to Han Solo in carbonite.

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Playing phone games

One missed call on my phone. Who from?

Tim.

Talking with Guy about everything yesterday made me calm down a bit over the whole Tim situation this weekend. But I still don’t want to talk to him at all. At. All.

Not yet, anyway.

On the other hand, I’ve been thinking about Adam. Well, not so much about him, but about the message he left asking how my Valentine’s Day was. I wasn’t really intending to return the call, but…maybe it wouldn’t be such a bad thing? I don’t know.

Not yet, anyway…

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Guy Sideki: Pinnacle of Reason

Guy and I have been talking a LOT today…and it never ceases to amaze me how Guy can be so stupid sometimes but so intelligent and perceptive at others. :)

I gave him the shitshow rundown of my weekend with Tim and we sort of got into talking about human nature and how it all works (BSG is a good show for this, btw).

We agreed that anyone who takes advantage of someone else is a bad person…i.e. Tim. But then, did Tim do it on purpose? I don’t know…it’s so unlike him to do something like that, I can’t help but think he didn’t mean to.

Still though, it happened. And then when he said he still had feelings for me after I said I have feelings for him…was that reciprocal? Just like getting caught and saying you love someone after they say they love you? I don’t know!!

I do know that I’m still really angry and hurt by Tim’s actions…but Guy says I’m too trusting. Am I? I always look for the good in people because there’s always some there, but…am I projecting my feelings onto Tim and then getting upset when it doesn’t work out?

Maybe. He also brought up the fact that it’s interesting how I proposed Tim and I see other people in the first place…and now it’s clearly bugging me. That was hard to hear even though I probably needed to hear it.

AGH, I just wish I knew what to do here! Why doesn’t life come with a guidebook??

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best friend bender

Long weekend = EPIC win. If ever there was a time when I needed a day off from work and life, it’s this.

I guess I should technically be spending Family Day with my mother but she made plans to be royalty (or treated like it anyway) in a spa – totally cool by me, because I’ve got plans to hang out HARDCORE with Guy!

And THAT means intense movies, grit-teeth gaming, violent eating and having WAY too much fun. Plus, I REALLY just need to rant to someone about this past weekend…Guy doesn’t know about the Tim debacle yet.

BRING IT ON!

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Grr…

Betrayed, stabbed in the back, shot through the heart…

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Sweaters and Skyrims!

Whenever I need cheering up…Guy is there. Why is arguing with him just as fun as not arguing with him?

Imma call him and see if he’s free for hangouts tonight or tomorrow!

LONG WEEKEND POWER!!

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FOOL of a Lapomme…

Where do I begin?? I’m just…SHAKING right now…

Okay, sushi last night was good – it was easy to talk to each other, like nothing had changed. Tim’s doing really well in Waterloo – school’s kind of kicking his ass time-wise, but that comes with the territory so it’s fine.

I ended up eating way too much but it was kind of a good thing because it made me feel really UNsexy. Weird logic, but it was important to keep this just a casual friends thing…

A lot of sake later, we went back to my place for a nightcap and things got…interesting. Long story short…

We fooled around and he spent the night. I KNOW, I sort of copped out on my own promises, but it felt so right! There was a total rehashing of connections and sparks between us. Maybe part of it I can blame on the booze but…it was too hard to say no. It was too much good nostalgia to pass up!

Plus, it’s really important to point out that we both wanted it. Hard.

Anyways, this morning at breakfast, I just came clean to Tim: I still have feelings for him and I can’t deny it. And after last night before, why bother right?

He said he has feelings for me still too…but that he’s also really enjoying our arrangement, having fun seeing other people in Waterloo.

NOT. COOL. TIM. He should have told me that BEFORE everything happened last night.

Basically, I feel really cheap and stupid and used.

I don’t even want to see him again before he goes.

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Prep sequences are go for launch.

T-minus 1 hour til sushi with Tim.

It’s a good thing it’s all-you-can-eat too because I am MEGA hungry. I’m looking nice, but not TOO nice…not like I’m trying to show off.

Some pre-selected conversation starter topics are a-go, like “How’s life in Waterloo?” and “Catch the return of Walking Dead last week?”

Simple, I know, I know, and I honestly don’t think we’re gonna have any trouble communicating at all but better to be safe than sorry, yeah? Yeah.

Wish me good luck and a happy meal!

But not a Happy Meal. Never a Happy Meal.

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Tim Time

I just got off the phone with Tim! Weird to hear his voice again after so long (has it really been that long? Sure feels like it…).

Anyways, he’s staying at his parents’ right now but we’re gonna go out for dinner tomorrow night – all-you-can-eat sushi will do the trick! Casual environment, chance to talk and catch up, public to keep myself in check…

I’ve got tiny butterflies thinking about all this actually…but I guess that’s normal too.

Thiiiis is going to be an interesting weekend.

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You have. One. New. Stalker.

New voicemail, check iiit:

“Hey, it’s Adam. How was your Valentine’s Day, huh?”

*click*

He’s persistent, I’ll give him that. Still……

*eyeroll…*

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