So my mother asked me AGAIN tonight about what degree I’d like to get…totally not realizing what a DIFFICULT decision this is! I’m not going to enter into potentially four years of school lightly.
I told her that I haven’t decided on a) what I want to study, so therefore I can’t decide on b) where to study it.
She said that I’m “just making up excuses!” If she were me she would pick the school first and then study whatever could guarantee her the best job. Best job? She selects clothes for a living. “Best job” is subjective.
She says I could choose to study in Paris if I want to…”don’t I want to go to Paris??” Sure! I’d love to travel all over the world…to see it. Not be stuck in one place studying something I may or may not want to do.
When I finally told her I HAVE TO THINK ABOUT IT SOME MORE, she said that this is another example of my self-sabotage. She thinks I’m too resistant to change, and I won’t commit!
No way! For me it would be self-sabotage to commit to 4 years of something that my heart is not in…especially when I’m so busy already with other things!
She’ll just have to wait. :)