Take, take, take…

Just got back from a coffee-talk-hangout with Tim, partially so I could bask in his intelligence/warmth aura and partially so I could vent a little about Guy’s slightly overbearing fear of germs…

And Tim’s always sweet to lend an ear to my worries, so I really appreciate it. What a good bf!

So then is it really bad that when Tim started talking about school again, checking out this one, and maybe going to scout out that one…it irked me a little?

Irked me in the way that Tim going away would/is going to SUCK. I’m happy for him going back to school and doing what he wants to do! So why can’t I focus on that instead of being a total putz about it and moping (albeit secretly)??

First I can’t talk about it with Guy, and now I have to “pretend” to be happy about it with Tim? I don’t need to pretend, I AM happy!

SO WUDDUP WIT ME?!

2 thoughts on “Take, take, take…

  1. What’s up with you is, you’re obeying Jack Nicholson from the 1989 Batman movie: “Think about the future!”

    Tim, in following a career choice, is in a sense “moving forward” with life. You, on the other hand, seem pretty content with life as it is: you like your current job, your social life is stable, you’re in a state of détente with your family, etc. So what’s eating you is the growing thought that Tim, in moving forward, may be leaving you behind.

    Perhaps the best way to deal with it is to make major plans for the future. For example: creating a super-unique Game of Thrones costume to debut at the San Diego Comic Con. Registering for a course in theatre improvisation. Saving up for (and going on) a “bucket list” grand tour of Europe, or Southeast Asia. Something that motivates you to keep looking forward to what Life(TM) could bring you next.

    • Love this! Yes, I do believe you’re on to something there. But it is easier said than done…I’d love to pour my energy into something, but what? I’ll have to ponder this some more…

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